"The law tells me how crooked I am. Grace comes
along and straightens me out." D. L. Moody
I grew up in a conservative community which some called
Fundagelical. I realize the term may be a new one for you, so let
me define it by saying that some in our congregation felt we
shouldn't evangelize the Amish because they dressed a bit too
We did not play cards (except Rook), attend movies (except The
Hiding Place), or yell "Shoot!" (except during church basketball
games). Most of our parents enjoyed George Beverly Shea's music
until the percussion section got carried away, and we were taught
to dance only when shot at with live ammunition.
I almost feel guilty mentioning it, but I had a great deal of fun
growing up Fundagelical. Oh sure, there were negative side effects.
For instance, there was the memory loss. And there was, uh...I
can't remember the other thing. Seriously, certain side effects do
linger. For one thing, I grew up with the strong impression that
Christianity was largely outward. Though I often heard that works
weren't the ticket to heaven, we found out early that it was our
actions which gained approval (or disapproval) down here. The
result was a tendency to fake my faith.
I also grew up believing God wanted me miserable. Don't ask me
why. I guess I saw it in the faces of those who came to church
looking like breakfast was a bowl of lemons with vinegar on the
side. God's will for my life, I thought, included serving him in
the remotest part of India married to the girl who sat at the front
of our class squealing on everyone. And so, reluctant to trust God
with everything I had, I decided to pursue adventure
You didn't have to look far. For a mischievous Fundagelical child,
it only took a spark to get a scandal going.
One fine Wednesday our dreams came true. Discarded in a deserted
ditch was the desire of our hearts: a pack of Player's Filter Tip,
unopened and beckoning. Stripping the plastic off, we divided the
pack evenly. Ten apiece. And we sat in the tall weeds inhaling
every last one of them. Right down to the filters.
After staggering back to the nonsmoking zone, my friend was caught
yellow-handed by his mother. But I was older. I was wiser. I knew
that as ye smoke, so shall ye reek. Plus my brother Tim had told me
the punishment for smoking in our community: "They cut your lips
off." So I slipped silently up to our medicine cabinet and found a
can of spray deodorant. I finished it. Then I pulled out a full
tube of toothpaste. I finished that, too. Finally I was able to
approach my parents.
And that night I crawled into bed, a satisfied smile stuck to my
face. Boy, are you brilliant, I thought. No one will ever know. My
mother entered the room then and sat on my bed, sniffing. "How did
it taste?" she asked.
"Uh...supper? Very good, Mom. Thank you. Thank you very
"When I was a little girl," she continued, without skipping a
beat, "Grandpa let me smoke his pipe. I didn't much like it. How
She could have cut my lips off. Or spanked me. Or quoted
Scripture. She could have reminded me that no amount of toothpaste
or deodorant will cover our sins. Instead she leaned over and
kissed me gently on the forehead.
"I'll never smoke again," I said. Then, "Mom, how did you
"Well, Son," she said, tucking the covers in around my shoulders,
"sometimes 10-year-old boys forget that their mothers have friends,
And I heard my father's voice, coming from the bathroom. "Hey, has
anyone seen the deodorant?"
Looking back on my childhood, I'm thankful for rules. I'm thankful
I learned early about the seriousness of sin. But I'm glad I was
shown more. I'm glad I was shown grace.
Today I have three children of my own and I'm spending more time
on my knees than ever before.
I pray that they will discover early that rules are necessary,
that Christians are human, and that God's will is the very best
thing. I prayed that they will love the Lord Jesus with everything
But mostly I prayed that they will breathe deeply of grace. And
discover, as I have, that we travel a little lighter when God's
grace carries us along.
Adapted from Making Life Rich Without Any Money. Copyright
1998 by Phil Callaway. Published by Harvest House Publishers,
Eugene, Oregon 97402. Used by permission.